Lost Smile

I am living near a kindergarten...
Every afternoon while I am walking over that area...
I could hear "laughs, chatters, tickling sounds.........."
Most of all I could see numerous BIG SMILESSSSSSS"

It sometimes touches my heart...
Where is my passion of going to school? Am I not anticipated for school anymore? Have I lost all my drive?
I was used to like school very very much....but now, as time pass.....
I am no longer that little girl stepping into the school with lots of question marks. Instead, those question marks have changed into EXCLAIMATION marks....I guess its because we got more to think, consider, care and bother.....

The truth that I hate to admit is : I no longer love school in the way I used to. School is like a pathway of getting a degree, high-fly job, lastly, success and glory.

I love kids for I like their smiles...
Geniue and sincere, with no deception and cobwebs. There is no meaning behind all these smiles. They're just SMILES. No intimidation or danger.

What they think about is
"What am I going to do with the boys/girls living next door?"
"What kind of hand craft are we having today at school?"
"Is mum's dinner got to be a great one?"
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I want this kind of "naiivety" back.
Can't we human beings just be as simple as kindergarten kids?

My Genuine smile...... I miss you!

Hiiii ~~

Finally finished two homeworks.

Working time......... ??? NO limits.

The bottom line is : I will work what ever time it is, until feeling dizzy....

Sounds crazy.......eh?

Anyhow, it's time to get back to my essay.

This time an expository essay, the kind that I am only mildly interested in.

I remembered that one day I picked up my grandma's certificate (Medical doctor)...

It was HUGE (extremely huge really - the cert was as long as a child) and GRAND......

I really would like a qualification as such.... That's my goal in life.....

But I didn't choose Science, instead I go for the Art stream since I like Histories more than Chemistry. Plus, I am not talented nor interested in Mathemactics at all.

Therefore, I hope to go for a Law Degree in the future. (The cert of dream....)

My grandma did it YEARSSSsss ago. Perhaps, I also posess the gene that allows me to.

Hahahaha ~~~ (I know that is scientifically unproved - btw)

Work hard for the time being.....

Too much work, where is the time?

I didn't intend to write an entry as the followings.....
I wanted to share with you all about what I've seen today....

Complains :
There are certainly too much to do within a short time.
Where is the time? I have already extended my working hours from 4am to 7am...
But that doesn't seem to work out.

Student's Exam/Test papers, My own term paper, Projects, Esays, Homeworks.......
Oh gosh!! I've been pretty free during the last two months (without much to do), but now?
It ALL come at the SAME time.

Enough groaning and moaning.

Get back to work.

Give Me Strength - Working Hard

These days I’ve been really busy in tutorial jobs. From Monday to Sunday, I got to travel long ways around Hong Kong. Honestly, I am not that interested in teaching, especially people below the age of 12. Yet, understanding yourself and acting opposite to it is a process of growing up.

I don’t mean I hate teaching but I certainly dislike the fact that the parent is LOOKING at me, if not spying on me. Somehow, you have to make choices in your life. Here, I’ve chosen money instead of personal preference. The money saved is used for my further studies. I very much want to study a second degree (part-time degree most probably). ONE bachelor degree is NOT enough.

I’ll stop teaching this P.5 boy after an X0000 were saved. I’ve had enough of his father. Please! Just trust me and stop constantly directing my lesson. I am sad to admit the fact that I need this job so badly. It contributes nearly up to 50% of my income right now.

Reply/Not Replying a Email?

Hi ~

I guess those who come here would understand this is a newly opened blog.

I got to control what information should I leak, right?

Everyone here would understand that.

Here I would like to share some thoughts pop-up in my mind during daily life. Not until now, I understand why it takes some people so long time to reply a Email.

I, myself is doing something that I hated the most previously. Somehow, I just don't have the mood to do so. Actually, replying a Email could be quite time consuming...... You don't want to type in a few sentences to you friends since you know that's not respectful especially they've waited for it so long. I got to apologise to one of my friends in Australia.

Umm.......... Hope I can have time to type her a long letter after all the course works are finished.

Exams coming, works piling up, I started to understand that every university student has their own business and troubles to deal with.

Lastly, I am waiting for a friend's Email too. (Hahahaa~~~)

I sort of missed her a little since she's a friend that I always treat her as my mentor.